Any Day Now...

WHY WON'T MY BRAIN TURN ON?! Doesn't it know that I have classes again?! Arrgghhhh

Bittersweet.

I miss the mountains. I'll miss the nostalgia of Raleigh.
I miss the rugged outdoors. I'll miss the comfort of my childhood home indoors.
I miss the independence of being away and alone from home. I'll miss the support of my loving family at home.
I miss my friends in Boone. I'll miss my family and friends in Raleigh.
I miss my home in Boone. I'll miss my home in Raleigh.
Is it possible to be torn in two? I am.
I love everything about Boone: the crisp mountain air, the unexpected, the rigor of classes, the independence, the friends, the landscape, the jagged edges of the outdoors.
I love everything about Raleigh: the familiarity, the unconditional, loving family I am so lucky to be blessed with, the friends I seem to have known for ages, the straight-edged lines of urban downtown.
I am so unbelievably ready to be back in Boone, but I am so unbelievably sad to be leaving everything in Raleigh behind.
Most of all, my family. I miss my family every single day I'm up in Boone, and that is one of resounding pains of Boone.
I wish more than anything I could have it all, family and Boone, but I know I can't. So for now I'll have to settle for both whenever I can get them and in 2 days, it's Boone's turn.
That does not by any stretch mean that I won't miss my family more than anything, I just wish they knew how much I do.

Interpretation of Sibling Dynamics.

To gain a better understanding of my sister and I's relationship, I have provided you (whoever you are) with the following video. Playing me is the young man seated at the table while my sister is played by the jolly fellow holding the pot of Kool Aid. Enjoy.

Lokta.

New journals/sketchbooks are for long nights of well wasted time!

Six Years.

I've never heard silence quite this loud.

____ Remains.

I've never seen the sky like this.
The stars
bleeding contentment
to be held in the arms
of the sky that so loves them
that it cannot let them fade.

Pushing Imaginary Buttons.

This is the first day I've actually taken final exams of this semester seriously. Ironically, tomorrow is also the last day of exams. Better late than never I suppose.

This weekend was simply too nice to pass up for climbing out at Table Rock. After my morning exam, I packed and headed out for a whole afternoon of climbing out at the Chimney's, a late night steak dinner cooked over a campfire, a night hike and stargazing on top of Table Rock, and hammock camping. I've decided that there are few things better than waking up in the morning outside in a hammock in view of the sun rising over distant mountains. It's impossible to properly capture all the tints and shades of the sunlight as it hits each tree top in the ridges and valleys without being there yourself. I'm really, let me reiterate the really, going to miss Boone this summer.

Ok, back to Mesozoic mammals and long since forgotten calculus review notes...shoot, I was doing so well focusing before this blog...